About Me - I'm Still Learning

So my cousin has a list....about her. So I decided to try and do one about me. By doing this list I realized I'm still learning who I am and what makes me, me. So I am going to start putting the tings I have on my list on here.....and maybe going in depth more on them so I can learn and so can you. Should be fun....at least for one of us lol.

Please bear with me.......the topics jump around quite a bit.

First and a big one for me.....when I talk to people even people I am comfortable with and even on the phone I tend to clam up. But let me write a letter or a note or blog and it all goes out there. I can see some times in the past I would hand people what I wrote and nervously stand by dreading the reactions I may get.....usually the reactions are not as bad as anticipated so I don't have a clue as to why I still clam up.

2) Bugs snakes and other creatures typically do not scare me.....but if you chase me with them I let out my girliest screams and lock myself in whatever nearest place I can....car, closet, bathroom whatever is there. I can not however stand salamanders.

3) I am paranoid of strange people coming into my home......when the cable guy comes i usually arrange for someone to be there with me. I have no idea where the fear comes from and it varies itself. When a friend comes with someone else it's not a problem. I guess I just need to know I have someone to back my story up if and when something happens lol.

4) I don't make detailed plans. When I do a bunch of things I do plan don't get done which ends up in me being disappointed. Instead like when I go on vacation I plan where we will stay and what we do just kinda happens from there.

5) I make to do lists several times daily. When the list gets too small or messy from things being crossed off I have to re-write it.

6) I'm not big on anything to do with TV......I do have my favorite shows and video games and movies but mostly when I have the TV on it is just for some noise while I do something else.

7) too many noises at once drive me crazy. my kids both talking to me at once, my hubby on TV and computer at the same time AHHHHH

8) I put myself out there emotionally very often. This has been a bad thing at times cuz it has resulted in me getting hurt. Then I do it again.

9) Since my dad died I fear I will have to re-live the experience repeatedly for the rest of my life. This makes me especially fear hunting season and anything else my loved ones may partake in that involves firearms.

10) I used to want to run a daycare and have lots of kids. Now I am content with watching the kids I am close to and looking for some other career to fill in anything else.

11) I've never really "dated" anyone. I've been engaged 8 times....lived with 4 of them....one of which I married. There are still no promises.

12) Singing is something I like to do and people used to tell me I'm good at it......I don't sing in front of people anymore.

13) I love going out with my friends.....this doesn't happen much but I love it every time.

14) I'd be lost without my dishwasher and my vacuum.

15) I cook. N I like to cook. A Lot. I would love to hold dinner parties and big holiday dinners.

16) I don't get my house clean to my standards.... ever which is why I don't have big holiday dinners and dinner parties.

17) Subway is my ultimate favorite fast food ever. I would eat there every day if I could afford it.

18) I bought my wedding dress on engagement #6.....I had it altered....I haven't worn it since. (I really hope to wear it someday)

19) I don't get myself anything I really want.....my family always comes first which is probably why they all have an insane amount of clothes and I have only a small amount.....that I've had for 3 years and most of which were not new when I got them.

20) I went to college once and enjoyed it.....but I dropped out to be a mom. I want to go back to school someday but I still don't know what I wanna be when I "grow up"

21) I really like flowers.....especially lilies, lilacs, and wildflowers.

22) I'm really not fond of popcorn. I have no reasoning to not like it.....and I do eat it occasionally but for the most part I don't like it...not even the smell.

23) I like pretty much all types of music and movies. This makes me easy to ride in a car with and easy going when it's time to pick which movie to see. (last movie I saw in theater......Ratatoullie.....with my kids and hubby. we also went to the drive in and saw Spiderman 3 and Shrek 3) I don't get out much.

24) I don't read much cuz it's gotta be quiet when I do.

25) Last one for today....After I take a bath......I take a shower. The bath relaxes me but doesn't make me feel clean so then I take a shower.


So there is my first 25 things about me. I've got some issues but that's me. Now I'm off to try to improve the things in my life that need it.

Yesterday, Today

so it was as I expected. Those in laws I spoke of did show up. And the very first question to arise was where is grandboy.....I as calmly as I could informed grammy that he was in his evaluation place and she got quite upset saying well thanks for telling me. I informed her it was none of her business.....she then informed me that she didn't see how it wasn't. Man this drives me bonkers. (a little history.....the way she acts it is as though if she had her way we'd have to inform her we would like a pop then inform her which we decided to purchase and then be told how it wasn't the right choice anyways because everything in our lives is "her business") So when I tried to inform her why the many counselors we have seen and ourselves have agreed it best to keep her out of things she and her hubby walked out of the house and left. Well, that was seemingly easy enough.....but then they had my dear hubby help them move a stove (which they never asked him to do).....after a 12 hour shift...he was none to happy but being their blood could hardly argue and the sooner he complied the sooner they went home. So, That was that...of course she had her words to him about me (again) which haven't been repeated to me but I could imagine. My car now has had the muffler come unattached from the pipe and is quite loud (an excellent example of our luck with cars). So there was yesterday in a nutshell......yup. So, today, my dear baby girl let me sleep in to which I was plesently suprised that she hadn't made a icky mess of her room, she made the decision to use her potty chair!! and leave the contents in the potty chair!! What a big girl thing she has done!! It is raining today...and looks gloomy but I get to see my little man so I couldn't have a care in the world....the weather will not keep me from my son. The only issue with this trip at this point is well, grammy has no doubt called mommy in law. Who lives in the same town as bay boy's evals. anyways I will hear it or hubby will hear it all again. but again nothing will keep me from my son. so instead of writing info about me today as I had wanted you got to hear more of my life....when someday I get back to a normal every day of cleaning and such I will be able to tell you about me the person lol. Tomorrow's blog will no doubt contain how my visit with my son turned out and any events of our trip as there are usually a few lol. The last trip (when we brought son to evals) went smoothly....baby girl charmed the lady at the gas station and scored some tattoos...but i suppose i have to ready myself to leave.