Soooooo

Today has been a long day for me. Hell, it's been a long day all week. There were applications filled out, turned in and for hubby a few interviews and some added hours at the part time job. But no new employment has been seen. bummers. I got to see my little man today and found out that he is doing great......i am happy to report that he is off all meds and the bags under his eyes are gone (i think in part due to he now has glasses) He looks so much older and handsome let me tell ya!! I keep finding it more and more obvious that my marriage is in a odd stage that not even I can manage to understand where it will go. He (hubby)did however tell me I can go to rally if I can get it together to go....apparently he knows how important rally is to me. I went into the mall today......baby girl's first time in the mall and I must say those over sized sun glasses I usually view to be kinda tacky (but are apparently the "in" thing) look great on her lol. I found lots of things I want and even found out a store my twig of a sister shops in is now carrying my fat size......I really REALLY want a job now!!! lol. I was actually eyeing some things at wal mart the other day too and said well, damn they really aren't helping with the initiative to lose weight.....they're all just making the clothes bigger. *sigh* oh well......health and well being should be good enough I suppose lol. I am still trying to figure out how I keep gaining slowly but steadily......the last time I discussed this with the Dr. (the ones I think are out to kill me lol) they're reply was "are you pregnant". Not sure I would be concerned about gaining weight if I was. And of course they ran yet another thyroid check......none of them ever come back telling them what they wanna see. So I keep gaining weight. arg. It would help if I didn't lose my breath before I even get my heart rate up......I was wrestling my hubby in a tickle war last night and was out of breath....checked the pulse....I might as well been watchin tv. grrr. I guess I will just keep trying...someday I'll get it right.

Now that's better

I feel better today and so I will continue my list from before. I believe I had stopped at 25 last time so here it goes again. (I don't know how long this will go seeming as I have a ton to do)

26) Somewhere inside there is a country girl...sometimes you can get a glimpse of that but if I let it all out I think everyone would be pretty surprised.

27) CHROME. my favorite color. shiny. i also like most metallic but chrome is my all time favorite.

28) I am a FORD and HARLEY kind of girl. Sadly I own neither and dream of both lol. (i want a cotton candy pink pick up with chrome rims and trim)

29) I love to fish. However I won't touch the fish, leeches, and forget salamanders. I will bait my own hook and all that good stuff but that's about it. weird huh!?!

30) I love Love LOVE to travel. Elevation changes make me really sick though. I've never been on a plane.

31) I love the mountains and the ocean.

32) I enjoy wedding planning......I could probably figure out most anything around here if I didn't have any restrictions.

33) I can't drive any manual transmission car. Anyone who has ever tried to teach me has only rode with me once. (3 people)

34) Paintballin' How fun would it be to get all my friends out there at once.

35) I like to bowl and play pool. Back in the day I wasn't half bad...now I'm no good at it but I still like it.

36) I love my kids but I think I want another boy.

37) I constantly feel like there is something really medically wrong with me. I've been through tons of tests which they claim there was nothing. I don't return to the Dr. cuz last time nothing was wrong I ended up with a specialist telling me I needed surgery asap. Specialist good, regular Dr. um no.

38) It really takes someone special to motivate me to follow my heart. ah who I am kidding it takes someone constantly "cheering me on"

39) I can forgive ALMOST everything.

40) I haven't been on a motorcycle since dad's been gone. (except sitting on his bike in the yard)

41) I have a fascination with landing planes (which is kinda why hubby is the one driving when we go past the airport).

42) My sister is my best friend.

43) I have a brother. Someday I will meet him.

44) I hate short socks and holes in my socks.

45) I am afraid of all needles except for tattoos. (I have 2 tats planned in the future)

46) In school I skipped track and field day cuz I just don't do running. I told everyone my "allergies" wouldn't allow it. I really do have trouble breathing when I run but it's not allergies.

47) My upper body strength sucks. My legs are strong though......well they used to be but it's been a long time since I've tested it out lol.

48) I try to learn how to do all the "guy" stuff. So I don't have to depend on a guy to do it.

49) I collect Disney movies and M & M dispensers.

50) I do themes in my decorating in my house. Kitchen = Sunflowers Bathroom = Tropical My Son's Room = Cars My Daughter's Room = was Precious Moments and is in transition to Elmo My Room - is kinda wolves but isn't coming together quite right Living Room - well, was supposed to be like a hunting lodge style with emphasis on eagles.....again it isn't coming together quite right.


But I suppose there looks to be 25 more random things about me. I sure do feel like typing more but the housework is calling me and this time I'm going to make myself get it all done.

Independence Day and Saving Money

So with little money and a little bit of low spirits due to my son being away I had to try and pull through on a holiday that normally I enjoy to the fullest.....a summer fun holiday. Originally I had thought out in my mind that I would do the home fireworks display of my childhood years....a large BBQ style picnic of sorts and get to the lake early enough to catch the city show. None of which happened. instead we grocery shopped, visited my dear uncle to discuss where to try and fish, and came home to concoct stinky stuff (catfish stink bait). soon after we hit Subway.....mmm. With our food in hand we drove out to the lake to look for a good spot to sit and eat. Finally found one and enjoyed our picnic. Not quite the envisioned but yummy, peaceful and good enough. After our picnic we wandered to the lake shore and I went camera happy on my little girl lol. Her favorite part........watching dad throw rock in the water. sheesh. After this we headed home again......no bathrooms and water at the lake......you put it together. We got home and found last years modest supply of leftover works and fired them off......to which this year baby girl liked the sparklers, thought anything that moved was scary and she told me that the snakes and glow worms were icky and looked like poop. We also got bit up by mosquitoes and decided it was time to head in for the night. All in all the 4th wasn't horrible. I miss my little man. I visited him on Thursday and they told me he was doing pretty well....just wish they wouldn't have told me it may be a long time before he comes home for sure. *sigh*

Being as our cars are costing us so much these days I have been trying to cut costs where and when we can....so I figure I'll let you in on what I've been doing in case you could use some of these ideas. (bear in mind I am not about extra work and like to live comfortable and so I'm not going out of my own limits to scrimp)

I finally got the hoses hooked up on my washer right so things get washed cold.

I don't run the washer till clothes are needed and I have a plan in place to not use the dryer if possible.

I don't run the dishwasher til it's full.

I shop at the dollar stores and buy store brands.....unless I find them to be crappy....then I will go back to the brand I know.

Pop and beer cans.....man were there ever a lot left behind at the lake last night......we went around and picked up some to get out of the house today and do something good. Cheap activity followed by hubby will turn them in and get $0.50 per pound for them.

We eat venison, pheasant and fish so we take advantage of fishing and hunting. 4 deer will get us through a year easily.

The Old Home Outlet store proved to be a big money saver for us.

There is a sprinkler park in the city Noah is in and it's free so we took baby girl there.

Jazz Fest is coming up.......more free entertainment if we make it out that way.

Savers (or any other thrift type store)......picked up some things we needed there.

Game Stop....traded in some old video games and got some new ones.....also bought em cheaper than new.

Watchin sales, finally using coupons, library books.

Instead of the outrageous price for a day at the pool (in which we will only stay an hour or 2) we got a wading pool in the back yard or we'll just go to the lake.

Turning off the power strip to the computer and related devices and the computer and it's counter parts when we aren't home and at night. (I read this can save $200 a year!!)

Shutting off the air and opening the windows at night only to turn the air back on if it's really that hot. (also shutting off the air when we're gone)

Freezing leftovers which also makes hubby's lunches easier. I also got the idea to do a restaurant night when the stock gets higher...that sounds fun.

So nothing too tricky just takes some getting used to. Oh and if you've got some suggestions I'm open to them.

Maybe I can find words

Well, dear hubby si not so fond of the moving on in our lives idea and this has caused us to bicker pretty much about everything there is to bicker about and then some. so not the low drama approach I had intended. Looks like it's going to be a harder thing to do then I realized. Hubby doesn't want me to get a job and in all reality I really can't at the moment.....I have no transportation (which looks to be a ways out yet) and no child care (which without a job I do not need). I really hope it's in the cards for me and my sis to get a girl's vacation at rally time....I know I need it and I think the rally in itself is something I need to close some doors and possibly open some others. Plus I miss my family "out west". It's time. But again we will see. My son called again the other day......I think he does it more for me then for himself anymore cuz he tells me the answers to my regular questions before I have the time to ask. They informed me that they are taking a trip to the Gymnastics Academy so I am sure durring my visit tomorrow I will hear all about it. Tomorrow is our 14 day review.....I hope this review has more answers than the 7 day counseling session. I do know that I learned nothing from the counseling session but the counselor might finally have something to go on lol. My mommy got the internet finally and fixed the old computer I gave her so now I get to talk to her every day!! I'm sure this will become less annoying when I go back to being the daughter and not the tech support person lol. Today is my cleaning day (okay they all are) and I am determined that I will get my list of chores done...TODAY. I am on a mission to change my procrasinating ways. we shall see. Step one, get off the computer.